| Everythins gon' be alright, ya, everything is gona be alright |
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im starting to finally come to terms with things. break ups suck, i've realized how much i hate them. but every new beginning comes from some other beginnings end, so im trying to see the positives from the situation, which are: i can do whatever the hell i want(drink smoke) and not worry about getting my boyfriend mad. i can see my friends so much more now. i can have hook ups with whoever i want, whenever i want. i want have to hear my boyfriend bitch at me when i dont find time to text him. i dont have to listen to my boyfriend complain to me that the wall i have up isnt fair to him and that i dont love him the same. i can be me, just me. however, i no im going to miss just holding his hand, warm embraces, the smell of his shirts, kissing him and cuddling with him, falling asleep with him, and the feeling of security, and the feeling of LOVE. i know that i am a stubborn person and that it is hard for me to forgive, forget, and move on, but i am trying my best. the worst thing for me to picture is him being with someone else but i no that that is completely and 100% inevitable. and i understand that, but i hate it. im trying to focus on other things and just be as happy as possible through this, because i know that everyday will be alittle better until one day i can look back on that relationship and just smile and aprreciate what i had instead of feeling angry and sad.
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[28 Apr 2007|11:53pm] |
I dont understand it, life isnt fair sometimes
Rest in Peace Nick
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[24 Apr 2007|07:12pm] |
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so ya, how about 37 more days of school? not bad, cud be better. and i think its 18 more days until we're the "seniors" of the school...ya scaryy.
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| i smell sex and candy |
[17 Dec 2006|05:40pm] |
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ok well this week has just gone by soo fast and 2moros monday :( well at least that means we're closer to vacation!! omfg i need to get my xmas shopping done! so me and javi made up and we;re fine now and we talked everything over n i saw him friday night. then yesterday i worked for brian and rich would not friggon leave me alone, he was constantly hitting on me and telling my friend kendal how he wanted to hook up w me so bad but i pretty much ignored it all. then after work i got home n my parents were having an xmas party n i went over to briannes aunts while she was babysitting n i checked my fb while i was there n there was a message from rich saying "im thinking u should break up w ur boyfriend or bend the rules". i was just like omg, but i wrote back "haha no sorry". he like doesnt get that i cant do nething with him. then later that night we went to my house n hada sleep over but we didnt get back til like after 12. this morning biff brianne n i went to the wrentham outlets n didnt get nething. then i came home n did more electric stim n just hung around n now i just got back from my aunt n uncles. uhhh i need vacation n lots of sex haha
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| Got a nice package alright, guess im gonna hafta ride it 2night ;) |
[31 Mar 2006|05:51pm] |
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I WANT SEBA!!!!Wow i didnt no it was possible to be more sore and tired than i was yesterday but i am today. i feel so exhausted, like my body just shut down and i think im getting sick, im gonna drink orange juice and go to bed early even tho its fri. if i cud do anythign in the world right now it wud be fly to bora bora with friends and hot guys for them and seba for me. go and sleep on the beach on a hammock right now and then 2moro night we wud go clubbing and live it up. that sound so good right now! im jus picturing a tropical beach at night right now. ahhh i needa get away. i need to get over seba. so this morning b4 school mi mash, mrs creedon, brianne and i all went out to breakfast, it was sooo good and it filled me up and the coffee woke me up. there were alot of teachers, it was weird. kyle wudnt leave me alone today it was so annoying, he has bad timing, whenever i like him he never touches me or nething then when i cud care less bout him hes always up in my bubble.
spanish- worksheet
history- watched another fucking movie!!! they make me sleep.
double math- quiz that i bombed. haha she musta thought i was so drugged up 2day, i didnt understand anything she said, and id ask her a ? being dead serious and she laughed! i was like ooooook.
english- talkd bout great expectations, went to lunch, came back and did notihng, we talked about our hair lol. i think its the funniest thing wen eliot goes "fanx miss cecchi, fanx" haha wow totally jus found out today that him and joe n stoners, weird
bio- got my grade for the term ,its an 85, i coulda done better. watched a movie bout dogs again
band- it was senior skip day so no one was in band so we played 1/2 the period and then me and devin left. haha it was soooo embarassing, i "used the facilities" in a bathroom and a teacher came in as i was washing my hands and went right into the stall i was in, haha i shoulda been like uhhhh i woudnt go in there if i was u.
i went and made up a spanish quiz, it was easy but my brain wasnt functioning so i duno how i did. i didnt stay and see wat i got cuz i needa to run to tennis. so i get to tennis and my wrist is cashed and i couldnt like do nething so i asked her if i cud sit out and she said it was fine. so i jus sat and iced. ewwwww we got the ugliest skirts ive ever seen in my life, omggg ewww, i wana puke theyre so bad! then i went and watched the boys lacrosse game for about 5 min b4 i got bored and went into the weightroom w brianne. haha we seriosly did like 2 machines and then left. for the time i was in the school i prob saw smiley like 6 times and his cologne was so strong, haha hes so cute but wicked creeeeepy. i seriously 1 time thought i was gonna be raped haha. god damn y cant seba b creepy. so then me and brianne were jus laying down on the wooden thing in the lobby and my dad called so we went outside. i was walking over to the car and guess who i see when i happen to look up, yup seba, seriosly if my dad had come 1min and 30 sec later we wuda seen he walk right in cuz we were jus laying there. he looked so hot! haha his brown skin was shining in the sun cuz it was setting where he was walking. holy shit he looked sooo hot, ahhhh his eyes! damn. im so dissapointed that nothings gonna happen with us, i need to give up. i jus cant! so the guy thats always at r school thats like a janitor but american and scary looking, holy shit hes creepy. he always thinks im up to something, he watches me walk down the halls like to make sure im not doing anythign! im like fah-q. so im gonna eat pizza and ice cream and go to bed, kk bye.
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| havent updated in soo long! |
[11 Sep 2005|11:19am] |
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omgg i havent updated in the longest time, haha almost 1/2 a year but i figured since school started i should start this again. ya so school started and i like last year a lot better because the periods were frozen instead of block, and block periods totally mess up my sense of time. on the fisrt day of school i saw javi for the first time in like 3 months and i remebered wat i was missing, it felt good to be back but i wish i could just pick up from last year n go to those classes lol.so yesterday devin, brianne, and i did communtiy service at my dads work. we held up signs out on the street saying that there was a food drive. haha these hot guys drove by like 3 times b4 pulling in, then we just talked to them for alil. today was awful so far. my mom woke me up at like 8 to go to church so that just put me ina bad mood cuz my throat hurts and i wanted to get sleep. so at church i "misbehaved" according to my parents, and when we got home they had to have this talk w me. so i was pretty frigggon pissed. then i went for a long walk w the dog, got im so pissed, bored, and sad. i want school to be here and soccer to be gone!!
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so exhausted today!!! i woke up really early, like 6:30, but i went to be at 2:30 last night so i was really tired. i got home and watched some tv w/ no desire of getting dressed, haha im still in my pajamas and its 7 pm. so later i went outside to get some fresh air and shovel the snow, haha i only shoveled like an inch n i was like k thats good. then i fell asleep in the snow for aboout 15 minutes, it was very peaceful. but then my dog jumped on me and woke me up. so i went inside and watched some more tv, i was lmas when i saw the latte commercial for like dairy queen haha. then biffs friend came over n decided to do some prank calls n the ppl called back so i had to cover them saying, "what the hell do you want bitch i didnt call you!", in a man voice lol. then i had some brownies w/ icecream n got extremely naucious(sp?), so i went to bed n fell asleep, now i jus woke up n im bout to have dinner, then gilmore girls and 2 bed early. kk byee! <3
I melt everytime you look
at me that way........
I love you so much <3
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| let your waves crash down on me and take me away <3 |
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i havent updated in a really long time!!
math- i sit next to jen now cuz ricky sits in my old seat next to chapin
spanish- the teacher was in sucha bad mood!! i just did my math homework
english- got my thesis paper back, eh b-. haha then sadie looked at her book and where you write your name it said hoe next to hers, so she wrote a note back to the person saying all this stuff and mr sefick saw it and ripped it off the cover lol
history- watched a movie, but i just did my spanish project
physics- had a double lab, yesss
band- devin wasnt there cuz she was getting her eyebrows waxed lol
then i had to walk home from the bus stop in the hailing rain w/ joe, it sucked. omg i had this wicked good ice cream it was like mint cookie, soo good! well i have 2 go do homework and make an appt for brianne and me at cheri cheryl. kk bye!!
I ALMOST FORGOT TO SAY SOMETHING ESLE AND IF I CANT FIT IT IN ILL KEEP IT ALL TO MYSELF, I ALMOST WROTE A SONG ABOUT YOU TODAY BUT I TORE IT ALL UP AND THEN I THREW IT AWAY!!!
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[01 Mar 2005|06:24pm] |
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1 HOUR DELAY!!
math- talked with jen
spanish- took a quiz on a song
english- took a vocab test and talked bout romeo and juliet
history- read a chapter
lunch- ppl push soo much in line
physics- did some exciting math problems
band- haha band is always the best part of my day. today we had a sub so jen, devin, and i showed up late. then the class officers tried to run class and that didnt really work. then jen, devin, and i left early and hung out in the hallway talking and doing the 1 2 step dance :D
i got home, ate ice cream, did homework, walked the dog, and watched tv. i really like that song obsession by frankie J. omg my birthday is on thursday!!!
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I came into school late cuz i had 2 go to the doctor again and they put me on medicine so by friday i should be able to play in my game. its soo embareassing when u look at some1 n they c u looking, haha that happened 2 me at least 10x today. haha then my friend emily n i went to the gym to get a look at my hottie n he looked up n saw me in the window looking! i have reallly bad timing w/ him. I gotta go catch my ride 2 my game even though im not playing.
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Today was a really slow day. It was also kinda sad 2. in spanish i sit across from brianne n always fight bout feet on the other persons side lol, so today she kicked my bad foot n i screamed fuck you!!!! haha it was sooo funny cuz it totally slipped n then mrs. beltran put me at a table all by myself. Then in english we read this poem about a guy regretting aton of stuff in life so that was sad, but the rest of the class was fun lol. it seems that this whole day was full of ups and downs. OMG hate history!! i have 2 sit behind chapin n him n allen have 2 be the hugestt assholes ive everrr mettt!!! omg i hate them. Then i had lunch, physics, study, then band. In physics we watched this dumbass movie n the guy draws a finger w/ knuckles but it jus looks like a huge penis, haha me katie n emily were the only ones who caught onto that. Band was fricken hilarious. ya um no teacher showed up, that was good cuz me devin n jen n emily drew hilarious pictures. Devin drew "big him's" boner n i drew "mocha's", haha then jen screams mocha's is bigger than Big him's cuz she was using my ipod, then aton of ppl turned around n were jus staring at us!!! I feel like me n this person r really starting to grow apart, we used to be wicked close n i care for him ALOT n he knows it so things r really weird between us so i jus got back from walkin my dog cuz that really helps to clear my mind. Well off to write my thesis
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Eh, it was an ok Valentine's Day but its not my favorite holiday. I got flowers, haha kinda embarrassing. Theres a semi coming up so i went shopping for a dress with my friends. haha good times. I also had 2 go to the hospital yesterday 2 get x-rays on my foot, n i have 2 go to the doctors 2moro, ya fun. Well i have 2 finish my friggon thesis.
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